Head in the Clouds~
I’m losing touch with my current reality.
And That’s OK!
I kinda like it here, so I think I’ll stay awhile.
Even though I am in touch with the reality that I’m presently living in, I am also acutely aware how temporal it really is.
To be sure, it makes this current place not so real to me anymore.
I find it is extremely comforting in this new reality of mine. Much like how one might describe what it’s like to die and leave the earth.
It’s so peaceful to be floating out of my head and above my body to experience this other place.
It’s much more real there than where I am here.
I’ve decided it’s why I find it extremely difficult to concentrate or focus on anything that’s of the earth.
One might literally say, It’s what is referenced as ‘having your head in the clouds’
I have had my permanent address memorized for the past few decades, it’s H.E.A.V.E.N.
There have been moments of memory lapses and if I may speak metaphorically, I’ve nearly forgotten where I live, but thankfully the Lord will faithfully jog my memory (sometimes the hard way).
He reminds me what I’m living for, and who I am living for, and where I am living to someday be.
I am so thankful He remembers me, especially when I forget Him.
I can get so caught up in this temporary life on earth.
Even though at times I might have forgotten my home address, He never does. I am always in His heart. As are you.
His job is to woo us back toward His heart, our home, it’s where He resides. It’s where our loved ones are waiting for us, hoping and praying everyday for us.
As the gentle shepherd that He is, He will carefully grasp his beautiful shepherd staff and ever so sweetly He will nudge and guide us back toward home.
The shepherd staff is a good reminder for all of us that can easily become like distracted and proud sheep.
Sometimes I feel more in touch with that place than here. It’s the place I find my head lately. I hear it is also known as ‘The Shire’ (just ask JRR Tolkien, he knew this place very well).
The funny thing is that I’ve been living for heaven most all of my life, since I was 15. And except for a few bumps and bruises in my road of life, I’ve known what my destination is.
Now that my best friend is there waiting for me, it has become much more of an Intense focus to me.
I realistically know where I’m headed.
And being home is all I can think about.
I’ve decided it’s my new reality.
Do you ever remember feeling homesick as a kid? If so, remember when a week at youth camp seemed like an eternity?
We might have easily forgotten what our house looked like, the sound of our parents voice. And our household chores were the last thing on our mind.
Yet eventually, towards the end of camp, we wanted to be back in our safe place, the place we called home.
Most of us know that home is where our heart is.
Deep deep down, we know It’s where we belong.
It’s where my sweetheart lives now.
It’s where all of us will be someday. Altogether. Again.
Currently, in this place where we are residing, there is a temporary disconnect going on, and by now I am too far gone in my head and in my heart to return to the place I once knew. That place doesn’t exist anymore. I am living in my new reality and I’m learning to like it here.
I’ve already started to experience so many heavenly moments. Heaven’s mind has infiltrated all my thoughts. Eternal things are forever flowing deep within my veins and at the very core of my existence.
It’s the exact reason why people that have died and come back to life say that they didn’t want to return to their body here on earth.
Why would anyone want to come back to a place that isn’t heaven? They don’t.
In the real reality of heaven, there will be no more separation. No more sting of death. He promised.
That’s why it is of utmost importance that I stay on my knees and pray. At all times.
I will continue to pray for those that are not in touch with their heavenly Fathers heart.
Not in touch with their permanent home. With heaven. Salvation.
I don’t feel like I’m here anymore. I feel like I’m there now.
My everything is already in heaven.
And Since my heart is there. It’s hard to be here.
My head and my heart are not here.
My mind and my thoughts are not here.
What is keeping me here has now become extremely clear to me though.
It’s my family. All of my babies and my grown children. Oh and Sher.
More important than anything is their need for me to pray to my heavenly Father for them 🙏🏼
That is my sole purpose.
That is the only purpose I have here. It’s for them.
*One thing I know for certain is that so far reality is still here because we’re all still functioning